One month

Today marks a month ago that I got out. I have healed and accepted that fact that I deserve better and that what he did to me is not normal and unacceptable. I had a couple of really good weeks and then all of a sudden..boom...this weekend was so hard for me and I don't even know why. There is so much going on in my life right now:
1. the break up
2. grandma died
3. other grandma is sick
4. school work is stressing me
5. I turn 25 on Friday
I don't even know why I was so depressed this weekend and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't flip the switch. This is very unlike me and I don't know what to make of it. Also, for the first time in a while I found myself missing him and wanting to call him and see him. Why now?