One Day to the Next.

I'm not sure about journalling.  Maybe it will help.  Today is ok.  Just pretending the past two drunken nights by DH (dear husband) didn't happen.  We always do this.  Avoid the issue just to keep the peace.  There were too many days when we didn't and hateful words were said. 
Still trying to figure out the whole situation.   Don't want to live in an apartment.  This house has been my home for 30 years and my grown kids jumping off place. 
I'm watching someone I love fall apart.  No job, no license, pacemaker and stage 3 kidney disease.  He could be gone tomorrow.  I feel like I'm waiting for something.  Maybe a clearer vision will present itself through this forum and I will find strength from others in my situation.
I eat alot to console myself.  Sometimes I drink alot of wine to just not care.  If I wasn't married to an alcoholic I probably would not care if there was ever any booze in the house.
I'm avoiding issues.  At least I have my part time cashier's job during the day.  It's nice to be with normal women and men. 
Maybe journalling will help clear my head and I'll get the support I need.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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