One day til my Thyroidectomy

It's Sunday afternoon and I am a day away from closing chapter of my last year with Graves and starting a new chapter tomorrow when I have my Total Thyroidectomy.  I think I'm ready.  I've had my labs drawn every week for the last 4 weeks to see where my numbers are going since achieving remission and they just kept dropping.  I guess it's possibly that my thyroid has decided it's going to die out on its own.  Too bad the nodules on my thyroid wouldn't just disappear on their own too so I could avoid surgery altogether.  It is what it is. So, before I started taking my pre op medications (PTU and Lugol's), I had my labs drawn.  My Free T4 was at the lower end of range 0.8 out of a range of 0.8-1.1... so hypo I had already fallen.  Sunday (8 days before surgery), I started back on 25 mg of PTU (divided) daily and also Lugol's 5 drops, 3 times daily... UGH! Hypo hell, I thought I was heading there.... I was sure by Wednesday, I'd be so hypo that my bones would hurt, I would be too tired to function, and I'd barely be walking.... here it is, a week later... after faithfully taking my meds as directed by the surgeon... I've only endured being really tired and the brick wall feeling halfway thru the day didn't start until Thursday so GO ME :).  I'm satisfied with that.  Although, yesterday, the pressure in my chest started (this is one of those great hypo side effects) but I'm a trooper and will endure it as I know tomorrow when I wake up without my thyroid, I will feel all the more better and have a new set of symptoms to battle with.  I envision myself eating chocolate ice cream and drinking a hot chocolate from Dunkin Donuts as my first meal :) lol.... humor me.  I haven't had chocolate in over a year since being diagnosed with Graves and surviving that awful thyroid storm.  I did everything in my power to avoid any triggers the last year and would LOVE to just have one little tiny taste of chocolate.  There are a few great things that have come out of the last year thru this journey.  I've learned to eat healthier, much healthier by eliminating processed foods, eliminating salt and being creative with flavor, I've also learned a great deal of patience since to win the Graves journey, you must go slow and steady... I've learned to not get stressed, to relax more, and to enjoy the life that I have been given.  I've gotten closer to God, becoming more spiritual, and I've learned not to take anything or anybody for granted.  So, to Graves.... thank you for that.  To get there though, I had to endure frustration after frustration, lots of anxiety and panic attacks, chest pains, pressure, palpitations, as well as dizziness, headaches, rashes, itching, muscle aches and pains, bone pain and joint pain, and bouts of depression.  But I endured it all.  And once my thyroid is removed, there are no guarantees that I'll be better off than I was.... there's only a guarantee that I'll be more at peace with myself since this is MY decision.  Being without a thyroid has it's own ups and downs and it's own journeys.... I hope you'll join me and follow me as I embark on this chapter.  :)

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Beautifully written and you are on the right track! God bless! hugs and kisses
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Happy post-thyroid, you\'re ready.
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Good luck to you! Just had mine on Thursday. The surgery itself was a piece of cake for me. I have had some horrible pressure in my chest also since then, so I guess that is part of the hypo part. I\'ll write a little more in my journal now about the experience, but just wanted to let you know to start on a laxative right away. It\'s the worst consipation I\'ve ever experienced. They will probably give you a stool softener script to fill, but a laxative is definitely needed as well.

Take care and don\'t worry, it will be over soon :)