one day late!
I am one day late, but I took a clearblue test and I'm pretty sure it said negative. It's supposed to say + to indicate a positive result, but I had to have way blind myself to see the faintest traces of a vertical line, and I'm pretty sure it wasn't really there...
So, if I'm not pregnant that means I am DAMN SICK and my doctors won't listen. They think because of my history of stillbirth I must have baby fever and I'm making this up, which I am not. I have been throwing up for about three weeks now, daily, my breasts are very, very tender and I am eating chocolate daily, and normally I actually really don't like it unless I am on the first day of my period. So either I am so desperate to see a + sign that I am fooling my body into showing symptoms, or something else is going on. I am scared though.
I know that a lot of women on here would give their arms and legs for a rainbow, and I shouldn't complain, but I am only 20, I am still reeling from the loss of Sophia and I am a broke college student. I'm not even sure getting pregnant is the right thing. One day I am begging God for a baby to hold, the next I am thinking of running away to Arizona to finish college and thinking that a baby will be such a huge responsibility that I can't handle. idk. The only thing I know for sure is that I felt this way last time too, and towards the end of my pregnancy all I wanted was to hold her and raise her, everything and everyone else be DAMNED!
I don't know what I want and I don't know what's wrong with my body. Every fiber of my body is saying "YOU'RE PREGNANT" but all the tests are negative and my doctors are saying NEGATIVE. Maybe I'm crazy. grrr.
Someone pray for us? We will make it through ladies. One way or another.
So, if I'm not pregnant that means I am DAMN SICK and my doctors won't listen. They think because of my history of stillbirth I must have baby fever and I'm making this up, which I am not. I have been throwing up for about three weeks now, daily, my breasts are very, very tender and I am eating chocolate daily, and normally I actually really don't like it unless I am on the first day of my period. So either I am so desperate to see a + sign that I am fooling my body into showing symptoms, or something else is going on. I am scared though.
I know that a lot of women on here would give their arms and legs for a rainbow, and I shouldn't complain, but I am only 20, I am still reeling from the loss of Sophia and I am a broke college student. I'm not even sure getting pregnant is the right thing. One day I am begging God for a baby to hold, the next I am thinking of running away to Arizona to finish college and thinking that a baby will be such a huge responsibility that I can't handle. idk. The only thing I know for sure is that I felt this way last time too, and towards the end of my pregnancy all I wanted was to hold her and raise her, everything and everyone else be DAMNED!
I don't know what I want and I don't know what's wrong with my body. Every fiber of my body is saying "YOU'RE PREGNANT" but all the tests are negative and my doctors are saying NEGATIVE. Maybe I'm crazy. grrr.
Someone pray for us? We will make it through ladies. One way or another.
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I am praying for you. I hope you are pregnant. Wait a few more days and then test again. There has to be some explanation why you are feeling this way. You are NOT crazy. Lots of Hugs!