One Day at a Time - too true
9.20.11
Yesterday was my third day of sobriety. Last night I was looking up 'men's underwear' for info on a film scene I was writing. I wanted to know if I should write 'men's underwear' or 'men's briefs''. So I googled 'men's underwear'. I came across a sexually provocative retail web site for men's underwear. The underwear was sexual, the men were wearing see-through clothing. Very stimulating. And I'm not gay. But it woke up the beast. And it started me thinking about a phone call to the online service. And I went to my phone service web site. To check into making a call. And... I blocked the site a couple days ago. I took care of me. Anticipating. I hid the bottles of booze. I could have unblocked the site. Pretty easy to do. Didn't do it. Left it blocked. The impulse passed. I went on with the night. No compulsive masturbation. A metamorphisis has begun. I can feel it. I am breaking with past behavior. I am breaking free. My one uncontrollable urge, my uncontrollable addiction. Came face to face with it last night. Moved on from it. Yes!
Yesterday was my third day of sobriety. Last night I was looking up 'men's underwear' for info on a film scene I was writing. I wanted to know if I should write 'men's underwear' or 'men's briefs''. So I googled 'men's underwear'. I came across a sexually provocative retail web site for men's underwear. The underwear was sexual, the men were wearing see-through clothing. Very stimulating. And I'm not gay. But it woke up the beast. And it started me thinking about a phone call to the online service. And I went to my phone service web site. To check into making a call. And... I blocked the site a couple days ago. I took care of me. Anticipating. I hid the bottles of booze. I could have unblocked the site. Pretty easy to do. Didn't do it. Left it blocked. The impulse passed. I went on with the night. No compulsive masturbation. A metamorphisis has begun. I can feel it. I am breaking with past behavior. I am breaking free. My one uncontrollable urge, my uncontrollable addiction. Came face to face with it last night. Moved on from it. Yes!
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