One Day @ A Time...

One Day @ a time...   I just don't get it.  I would like to say that one day I will "get it".  But I really dont want to wait for that one day to happen.  How do you do it?  I admit, I cant do it at this moment.  I look back on all the what if's.  I look forward to all the what if's.   I have tried....  I know that I tell myself "just for today I wont gamble" and done it anyway.  I'm thinking if I would focus more on "just live for today, do what needs to be done today, dont worry about yesterday or tomorrow" then maybe it will start to sink in.  When I say "I will not gamble today", it really doesnt mean a lot to me.  Maybe I just dont trust myself because too many times in the past I have just paid lip service.  Ugghhh.... Just a little frustrated right now!!!!

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cloris
cloris

i know what you mean, i would say so many things to myself to stop myself from going into that casino but really it took time for the mantras to kick in because gambling was such a habit! My old way of thinking had to be overpowered- you know the\"just 20 minutes or let me try to double $40\" etc. i had to make myself remember how i felt-i made a list of why i should not gamble\"taking time from my family, breaking my husbands trust, i look pathetic at the machine\"etc. i had to get in the habit of reading that when i was in a casino parking lot to see if gambling was worth it. i think i just had to learn to switch my thoughts- casinos were such an easy habit. it sucks that it takes time because i just want to be through with this stupid addiction! sometimes when i really wanted to go in i would tell myself the casino will be there tomorrow if i really need it,today i will not go in. sometimes if i gave myself a little time to get the \"gotta gamble\" thoughts out of my head that would help. i hope you find what works for you. i, too, look at the what ifs- somedays gambling occupies way too much of my thoughts, either \"why do I?, why did I? or should I?-it is tiring!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

How soon we forget. You are right, it isn\'t that easy. It is for me now because I got it I guess. But this isn\'t my first rodeo and I can remember swearing on a bible that I wouldn\'t ever gamble again and strike me down if I do and the next day I am in the car apologizing to God because I am so awful and headed for the casino. That to me was the worst thing I could do but I couldn\'t stop myself. I still wanted to gamble no matter what. Now, I get sick when I think of gambling and remember all the money I lost and the people I lied to. Maybe it just clicks in your head one day? I don\'t know if I did I would write a book and make a million. Keep trying is all I can say. hugs to ya