once againnnn

is there sooommmeee kinda reason that i cant forget about him ... why cant i jsut stop talking to him ... i hate that evryday tht i feel like i wont beable to live without him ...its not fair .. that h get to be happy and im not .. wtf ... and why does he keep saying he is gonna see mee ...seriously what the fuck ... i fucken hate myself for feeling like this evryday ... for putting myself this everyday .... ughhhhh i dont want to do this any way .... ughhhhhhhh i want to forget about richarf i want to forget baout you you fucken assholeee.... ughhhhhhh i just want to feel better again ... iwant to feel better about myself..... for reals i  dont want to do thiss ughh when will i ever feel better .whennnwill i ever feel better ...wheennnn this is sooo not fair i fucken hate this ughhhhhhh ... PLEASE WHY CANT I GET OVER YOU YOU FUCEKN ASSHOLE AND YOU KNOWWWW WHAT YOUR DOING TO MEEE...EVRYDAY ITS THE SAME THING ... YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS JUST WANTTO BE WITH YOU BUT YOU DONT CARE .. UGHHH PLEASE SOMEONE HELP MEEEEE PLEASE I JSUT WANT TO KILL MYSELFFFFF .... I DONT  WANTTO BE ALIVE ANYMORE ... IDONT I JSUT WANT OUT OF MYSELF .... I JSUT DON Y WANYYOY FEEL LIKE THIS EVRY AGAIN .. PLEASE GOD HELP MEEE I DONT WANT TO BE LIKIE THIS ... I DONT WANT TO LIVE ...