On to Day #3
It was such a battle to overcome a difficult day 2 and be 100% honest. It was not because I had evil intentions to do so...but the lying has become so protective to me and I am not sure what I am protecting myself from. It is a habitual response now and I have to be careful with each word I speak.
My family and I are traveling to get away from the normal to work things out. To escape what is comfortable which has put us in a car together for 6 hours yesterday and it was hard.
I am in a place where if I am quiet and take the time to respond, which I need to do to ensure I self think and not react with a lie, they think I am just formulating my next dishonest moment.
i will say, being honest is scary and I just am so fearful over the response of others and how I will feel inside being so vulnerable.