ON THE SIXTH DAY OF CHRISTMAS...
...MY TRUE LOVE GAVE TO ME...
6 Geese a laying... 5 GOLD RIINNGGSSS... 4 calling birds...3 french hens... 2 turtle doves...and a partridge in a pear tree!!!!....
YEAH!, I wish!!!....This year I am starting the tradition of celebrating the Twelve Days of Christmas since my last two Christmas holidays have just been awful...I'm trying very hard to hold onto the spirit of Christmas but it's really been difficult these last two years... ...and especially difficult this year.
Not having a great day today...I realized this morning when I woke up (I actually slept last night, something I hadn't done since CHRISTmas Eve) that 'PEOPLE' drain me...when my husband is home all day, I am so tired the next day...he was off last Tues and Wed for CHRISTmas and when he went back to work on Thur, I spent the entire day in bed RECUPERATING...and honestly, I didn't do ANYTHING on those two day except go see my mom for Christmas (I was sick, again)...anyway, he was off yesterday and of course I went to church in the morning, with only two hours of sleep, and didn't do much else cause I was tired...well, when I woke up this morning I realized that I was STILL VERY TIRED...I spent two hours in bed wasting time online...I didn't get up until the landlord knocked on my door to move my bike for the landscapers!...so I went to move all my vehichles...came back and was exhausted...oh...and it didn't help that everytime I cough, which is often, I would have an 'accident' of epic proportions!!!...anyway...I didn't take my meds until 12:00 and that took everything I have just to do...and now I am sitting here writing this so I can document my vitals for today and for the ...sixth day of CHRISTmas!!!!! .... so here goes
VITAL SIGNS -
TEMP: 98.6
BP: 169/105 P98
RESP: 14
COMPLAINTS: tired, shortness of breath, wheezing, anxious, coughing, congestion, fuzzy brain,
MENTAL HEALTH - sad, depressed, anxious, frustrated, shaking, ...I cried today while brushing my teeth...cause I miss my mommy...I really miss her when I am sick...here I go, I am crying as I write this...it's just that having my mom with dementia is the hardest thing I have to deal with right now, especially when I'm sick...cause she's is the only one who truly understands my sickness, she was a nurse, and she took care of me when I was a child...and knows how debilitating this is...and as an adult, I could always go to her when I was sick and get the sympathy I needed...but now...I can't...no one understands and I am all alone!!!
I'm crying...so I'm gonna stop writing now and go do something else...anyway...maybe I'll be back later...
DR
6 Geese a laying... 5 GOLD RIINNGGSSS... 4 calling birds...3 french hens... 2 turtle doves...and a partridge in a pear tree!!!!....
YEAH!, I wish!!!....This year I am starting the tradition of celebrating the Twelve Days of Christmas since my last two Christmas holidays have just been awful...I'm trying very hard to hold onto the spirit of Christmas but it's really been difficult these last two years... ...and especially difficult this year.
Not having a great day today...I realized this morning when I woke up (I actually slept last night, something I hadn't done since CHRISTmas Eve) that 'PEOPLE' drain me...when my husband is home all day, I am so tired the next day...he was off last Tues and Wed for CHRISTmas and when he went back to work on Thur, I spent the entire day in bed RECUPERATING...and honestly, I didn't do ANYTHING on those two day except go see my mom for Christmas (I was sick, again)...anyway, he was off yesterday and of course I went to church in the morning, with only two hours of sleep, and didn't do much else cause I was tired...well, when I woke up this morning I realized that I was STILL VERY TIRED...I spent two hours in bed wasting time online...I didn't get up until the landlord knocked on my door to move my bike for the landscapers!...so I went to move all my vehichles...came back and was exhausted...oh...and it didn't help that everytime I cough, which is often, I would have an 'accident' of epic proportions!!!...anyway...I didn't take my meds until 12:00 and that took everything I have just to do...and now I am sitting here writing this so I can document my vitals for today and for the ...sixth day of CHRISTmas!!!!! .... so here goes
VITAL SIGNS -
TEMP: 98.6
BP: 169/105 P98
RESP: 14
COMPLAINTS: tired, shortness of breath, wheezing, anxious, coughing, congestion, fuzzy brain,
MENTAL HEALTH - sad, depressed, anxious, frustrated, shaking, ...I cried today while brushing my teeth...cause I miss my mommy...I really miss her when I am sick...here I go, I am crying as I write this...it's just that having my mom with dementia is the hardest thing I have to deal with right now, especially when I'm sick...cause she's is the only one who truly understands my sickness, she was a nurse, and she took care of me when I was a child...and knows how debilitating this is...and as an adult, I could always go to her when I was sick and get the sympathy I needed...but now...I can't...no one understands and I am all alone!!!
I'm crying...so I'm gonna stop writing now and go do something else...anyway...maybe I'll be back later...
DR
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Depression can mess with you. Big time. You need to find something to occupy your mind. I miss my mommy too. But I have some great memories and they have to sustain me.