On My Way....
The papers are drawn and he will be served within a week or so.
On Sunday we got together with my family and had a very good day. Even yesterday went ok .... until after dinner I got changed to see my attorney. he asked where I was going and I don't lie... I finally did tell him that I was still going ahead with this. I got the anger and slamming doors... before I left. Then more anger and abuse(nothing physical... just the usual emotional stuff. ... You know, those nasty words and thoughts that dig deep but noone knows are there but you)
I feel better for starting this.....I also feel stupid (like I should have just did likeso many others do....just stay and try to enjoy good times and ignore the many lonely, empty lacking ones. i know i have a long road ahead of me. I am so very tired of trying to explain my thoughts, feelings....the fact iactually discovered needs that have never been acknlwledged.
I do wish I could just go somewhere far away all by myself... and stay quietly alone, But then I do so wish i had someone right now to just hold me close while the tears did all flow away (at least for now) and tell me all will be ok. But these days... I still have some hope, and alot of dreams..... just no magic slippers, wizard , genie or fairy godmother to "grant" them.
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Its going then. That's good.... It can finally come to an end and you can find finality....
Soon you'll be able find yourself and become a better you.
Be strong..... You've done well.....
I remember my divorce and how much it hurt...at first. It is hard and you do question BUT you will be SOOOO much happier after the fact! It took me about a year after my divorce to start feeling better and then a new life was found :) Be happy in the fact that your future is bright my friend! Yes, the short term will be filled with lots of tears and lots of "what ifs" but believe me that getting out of a bad marriage is a blessing for both of you.
God bless my friend and remember that a new and better life is waiting :)
Yeah your you queen!! I’m sure it’s bringing up all kinds of emotions but remember that is why you started this in the first place. To feel again. I am proud of you for following through. I really believe you will have a more fulfilling life. Just have to get through these immediate fears which you can. Wish you did have a fairy godmother as you definitely deserve one. Have to settle for us I suppose. PS my granddaughter has a magic wand that I’ I’m sure you could borrow.
Hang in there . I remember my divorce and it was bad for quite a few weeks afterward. Wishing what once was always bothered me but, then again, I guess I was wanting to be loved but, found out that , that was never going to happen, even after over 10 yrs.
Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts. Truthfully, I have you all to thank for the support and encouragement to finally take the first step. (I have been thinking long and hard for awhile, but it took several nudges and a couple of head slaps...lol. to finally get me here THANK YOU AGAIN. :)
Hugs.
Yaaay! Happy Dance!!!!! :)