on edge

right now for no reason at all im close to tears. i cant fucking stand it i want to have control over how i feel sometimes i dont want to get in a shit mood for no reason im over it. i just want to feel somewhat normal somewhat ok. my brain is all over the place thought of everything keep bouncing around and i just feel like breaking down. im honestly scared im just going to have a total melt down whne its the worst time and im not going to be able to hide it or control it.