OMG I am codependent!!! I am so scared...
I learned to focus on other's feelings at a very early age, I lost myself in the process of being a good girl so my very strick parents (specially my mother) would love me and aprove of me.
As an adult I have struggled with making important decisions in my life and often let others tell me what's best for me. I am really good at knowing what others want from me, but I am clueless at knowing what I want and very recently I have nothing but anger at myself (even at that liltle girl) for not being stronger and allowing, giving up my wants, decires, thoughts to others.....
I am experiencing some many feelings that I do not like, and I just want to shutdown. I am struggling a lot with being confortable in my own skin. I am scared of how angry I am and how much pain I have in me!!!
Is anyone there that has been where I am at? I need some conforting words....
As an adult I have struggled with making important decisions in my life and often let others tell me what's best for me. I am really good at knowing what others want from me, but I am clueless at knowing what I want and very recently I have nothing but anger at myself (even at that liltle girl) for not being stronger and allowing, giving up my wants, decires, thoughts to others.....
I am experiencing some many feelings that I do not like, and I just want to shutdown. I am struggling a lot with being confortable in my own skin. I am scared of how angry I am and how much pain I have in me!!!
Is anyone there that has been where I am at? I need some conforting words....
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Been there.... its an awkward feeling. Feel the feelings and let it go. The task at hand is write down every feeling ... accept it feel it and let it go... for example i am ashamed if myself the way my past was so i feel the feeling of shame and say to myself past is past i learn my past i will let it go and feel no shame any more. I just want to be human and not perfectionist.