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my stepdad died in April 2014 and he had a nephew, going by the name of Andrew. He was so sweet and kind to me only lived two mins away, he was my best friend, big brother, you could even say he was like a dad to me. every time we spoke on the phone, we met up, in a text or even if he came round for breakfast in the morning he would always say two things to me that made me smile and made my day, they were: "cheer up princess because, your tiara is falling" and also "I'm am just a message away, I am here for you always and forever and I will never leave your side." May 29th 2014 he doesn't answer one of my messages and I am worried so I call him, maybe he was just asleep from a long hard day. I left it at that. May 30th 2014 he is still not answering me so I left it again. weeks and weeks went past and he wouldn't answer his phone or his messages so one day I go to his house. He was there on the sofa he was fine so I rang the doorbell and knocked on the door several times In relieve. He didn't answer the door he even saw me but just couldn't be asked. It is the 3rd of january 2015 and I have had nothing since. He wont talk to me he won't phone me or even message me asking if I'm okay. He is 38years old and he promised a young innocent 13year old that he would never ever leave my side not even one month later he has and ever since I have started to self harm again and I just feel worthless I want to give up. I am being bullied 24/7 and no one cares. I am fat, ugly, stupid, thick, dumb. I get that from everyone and I can't do anything about it. I've been beaten up for being myself. There is nowhere left for me to go I just wish I was dead so someone please kill me now.