ok then.. maybe

ok.. maybe I was a little harsh, but true,   I am hurt because I really wanted Eric and I to become one..I really wanted us to beat the odds of an LDR and make it work and be happy.  Maybe I just wanted to finally find a real man that just doesn't give up and walk away when things get tough, maybe I just wanted to find a man that really does fight for you... all the way...
maybe I just wont' ever find a real man. I know that there are a lot of men out there that like to believe that they are like that, but the best way to find out.. is when you are put through all the stepping stones of life.. good AND bad, and see if they are still there when you get Through it all.  Not many seem to be strong enough or love enough to make it through.. but they say, you  have to go through the bad to get to the good.  The wait was worth it..
I guess Eric was one of them that wasn't real.  I know I have to accept that.  "Keep my heart open, and love will find it's way in"
I guess time will tell for me..
Next year... again I hope for the best... and plan for the worst. Maybe that prince charming is out there,, the REAL one..the one that will sweep me off my feet and love me for who I am, and love ME, care for me, and never let me go... because I know I am worth it ! !!