ok so far today
Mood a little ocd but not as bad. I just want more calmness. I would love a smooth day, with less worries. I worry so much, about crazy stuff. I need good friends In my life i know wont judge me. Acceptance. No put downs. I want to be secure. I want hugs. I would love to have some new clothes. I want to stop cutting. To be thinner would be nice like i was 4 years ago. My meds .i was on didnt make me gain weight. I just want to be pretty. So I can look in the mirror and like what i see, at least a little bit. Being me is hard, I dont always know why i am . Or why i have this bipolar. I know i have been through too much hard stuff. I feel like i messed up part , well alot of my life. But I have 3 beautiful boys I love so much, an would die for. My husband is good.
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I\'m a worrywart too. : ) Perhaps reflect on Matthew 6:25, 27 ~
\"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life.... Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?\"
Whenever I find myself saying, \"I\'m worried,\" or I start to feel overly anxious about something, I simply think or say \"I trust God,\" or \"Jesus, I trust in You.\" That brings me peace, or at least peace for a while. Sometimes, I have to say this several times a day!!
True friends will accept you exactly as you are. I really hope that you\'ll be able to stop cutting. It will take you addressing the emotional pain for that urge to completely go away. Bipolar meds are notorious for causing weight gain, especially the antipsychotics. But, don\'t sell yourself short...you ARE pretty. I hope that some day, you\'ll look in the mirror and believe that. Big hugs!