ok.....OK!!

Ok so ive decided that toward the end of the night here at work i dont care what lies outside the walls of the building for me at home. I WILL watch what i have to on youtube to get pumped up and hit the gym as hard as i canand at night eat as little as i have to.....i WILL lose the weight i have added so carelessly upon my frame. If i want even the slightest piece of ME back then i need to STOP MAKING EXCUSES. I know what i am and i know who i was and the two are VERY VERY similar, I'm sick and tired of sitting around and crying or complaining and as i know that i WILL still have bad moments with my depression-anger and anxiety i will do my best to walk through the dark in hopes of finding the light again.