Ok now.

Wow today is now the most painful day I have ever expirenced in my life. I swear I want to end it all. Forget about my stupid goal, I am done. I just can't come to my senses right now.  I hate her so much now. I hate my parents I hate my school. I hate the people around me and I don't even feel comfortable with people on here anymore. I noticed this when I needed someone the most and no body answered me. I now know that I am by myself in the world. No one is helping me so I am going out to do shit on my own fuck it!