ok, day 2 or 3

of this manic cycle - day 3 of being on this site, which i really like so far. did a few things yesterday that i've been meaning to do for a very long time - just mailing a couple things at post office, read a little of this book for the first time in months, did little work out. but when will this cycle end? today? tonight? tomorrow? i think i'll be ok at least through the super bowl. the question is what will happen when my mood starts to change? when i have no desire to do anything, will i be able to do something about it? i plan on coming right to this site, will that help? my mood will turn dark sooner than later, prob at some point in the next 1-3 days. i don't want to think about it too much cuz i'm pretty good now, but i have to be realistic and being prepared for the next wave may help a lot.