Oh NO...

  AF just reared her ugly face! I knew she was coming but I guess somewhere deep down I was hoping that a miracle would happen and I would still get my BFP. I must say I am not as distraught as I have been in the past, probably because I had come to term with the BFN's I got over the weekend, but it still hurts.... so much
 
I miss my baby girl, I want to be pregnant so badly again! I start on my tablets as soon as I have a full flow (I am spotting right now)and then the waiting game begins to see if my embies make it and to the transfer. I am so afraid that they won’t and I will be completely crushed.
So for now I will go and light my babies candle, sit there as I do every day and remember her and what it was like to know when was growing inside of me, shed the tears I shed almost every day  and hope to god that this time, this month is the one.