Oh, reflection. I hate you.

   During rehearsal we were doing choreography the entire time in front of a mirror. I litterally threw up I was so disgusted with myself. I threw up whatever was in my system and since then I have only drank water and coffee. I am going to keep fasting until the day after tomorrow and work out for at least an hour everyday. I can't look like this anymore. If this is what people look at when they see me... I don't want to even think about it...
   For some reason I can't get below 132.5. Everytime I step on the scale I'm either 132.5 or 134.5. Sometimes I think my scale could be broken, but I don't notice any physical change at all. I guess I'll just keep working my ass off and hope for change...