OH MY GOD!!
Boyfriend got in a bad wreck last night. I mean bad. The car was totalled, the drunk driver who ran a red light somehow managed to hit them front and back. I was so mad that I didn't even know for an entire hour that my bf was in the ER, his whole family had time to go see the cops load his car on a tow truck and call everyone who's not even a blood relative but his girlfriend of almost 3YRS is like the second to last to know.
They had me so scared all they told me is that it was "really bad" and he was in a neck brace bleeding from his ears and nose and that he couldn't feel his legs. Imagine how freaked out I was! I thought he was going to be paralyzed or he had broken his neck.
But thank god I got there and he was making jokes laughing at me and telling me to calm down and that he could feel his damn legs and his ears weren't bleeding. 6 hours after he got there we got the x-rays and CT scans back and there was no broken bones or internal bleeding. But I was scared. The whole way up there I was just crying and thinking "I knew it!! I knew it!" i've been so unbelievably paranoid that he would be the next one to die and I've been scared for months that he'd get in a crash.
And I was just praying and thinking that I should've gotten pregnant by now so that if something had happened that I'd at least have part of him. It just kind of reinforced the fact that I want a baby, but I have no idea how to bring it up to him, he's so totally against it. He's a christian but he's so mad at God about what happened to Sophia that he said he might never go back to church.
But I know Sophia was up there watching over her Daddy, I could feel that. At least something good came out of her being an Angel.
They had me so scared all they told me is that it was "really bad" and he was in a neck brace bleeding from his ears and nose and that he couldn't feel his legs. Imagine how freaked out I was! I thought he was going to be paralyzed or he had broken his neck.
But thank god I got there and he was making jokes laughing at me and telling me to calm down and that he could feel his damn legs and his ears weren't bleeding. 6 hours after he got there we got the x-rays and CT scans back and there was no broken bones or internal bleeding. But I was scared. The whole way up there I was just crying and thinking "I knew it!! I knew it!" i've been so unbelievably paranoid that he would be the next one to die and I've been scared for months that he'd get in a crash.
And I was just praying and thinking that I should've gotten pregnant by now so that if something had happened that I'd at least have part of him. It just kind of reinforced the fact that I want a baby, but I have no idea how to bring it up to him, he's so totally against it. He's a christian but he's so mad at God about what happened to Sophia that he said he might never go back to church.
But I know Sophia was up there watching over her Daddy, I could feel that. At least something good came out of her being an Angel.
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