Oh... it's one of THOSE days!
I'm not handling today well. First I got told I was self-righteous and preachy because I told someone that their idea of marriage counseling was a good idea. Don't even ask how that works... Ugh. Secondly, my husband came home in one of those moods where he just constantly asked me why this or that didn't get done and treated me like I hadn't done anything all day, regardless of the fact that I was folding laundry when he walked in the door and the rest of the house was relatively clean. I hate it when he makes me feel like a lazy piece of junk because things aren't perfect. He doesn't do it all the time, which makes it worse. I never know what day he is going to come home feeling stressed out and superior. Then, our live-in babysitter (who is 17) tells me she is going for a walk with a boy and then comes home to tell me she went to his house and had sex with him. What am I supposed to do with that?! Do I call her mom? That seems like an awful betrayal of trust. Do I tell my husband? He'd probably want to kick her out. Can I trust her to not have this boy over to my house when I leave her to babysit? She's a good kid, I don't even know why she did it! She says she doesn't even like him all that much. They aren't dating, he just asked her to go for a walk. She says her mom wouldn't even care, but she doesn't want to tell her because it will cause her mom drama. Which sounds like bullcrap to my ears. I just have so much stress about this right now.
I haven't really been working out. All I want to do is eat, sleep and possibly cry. :( I'm not really sure what to do or who to talk to. I feel very alone right now. I wish I were closer with my husband, but I feel like I can't really talk to him about things. For one, he could help with my problems. But, he takes it personally that I want things from him. If I say that I want more hugs and kisses, he gets offended that I'm not satisfied with what I get. I should just be happy, I guess. :(
I haven't really been working out. All I want to do is eat, sleep and possibly cry. :( I'm not really sure what to do or who to talk to. I feel very alone right now. I wish I were closer with my husband, but I feel like I can't really talk to him about things. For one, he could help with my problems. But, he takes it personally that I want things from him. If I say that I want more hugs and kisses, he gets offended that I'm not satisfied with what I get. I should just be happy, I guess. :(
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