Off the Grid
I have started reading about going off the grid for awhile. I am drawn to letting my phone shut off and just not be tied to it anymore. I have a lot of time on my hands at work today, so, I am going to make a list of things I use my phone for. For instance, I have navigation in my car so I don't need it for directions, I have a tablet and wifi at home if I want to catch up on emails. My phone never rings so it's not like I use it for important things. My roommate says I should keep it but I want so much to be rid of it. I tried Melatonin last night, I slept for only 2 hrs and laid awake the rest of the night. I've hardly been outside over the last month and I've heard that natural sunlight is good for insomnia. Perhaps not having a window in my office and going straight to my dark bedroom has thrown my brain off into thinking there is no need for sleep. I'm so tired I've started making stupid mistakes at work. I stopped talking to anyone there. My wall is getting higher and my shell is getting harder to break.
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The media fasts do help me, tremendously. During the phases of my life where pocket watch is the most important function in my dumb phone's existence, leaving it on the dresser often helps me step away from the OCD of my isolation. Ditto for the stress of when it is ringing often enough to keep me eternally stressed. At either extreme, it feels like an electronic leash.
I keep the account, though. They aren't the gnarliest account setup in Tech World, but. . . Is there such a thing as a *fun* account set up? The last time (years ago) I tried to make a phone call on the road was a nightmare. I can't remember the last time I saw a pay phone and folks ain't getting any more generous in the sharing.
Steadying support and gentle empathy while you navigate the ravages of isolation. Hope you find a healthy isolation breaker soon.
Alcoholics isolate. Beware. Get out.