Of Course it's been a while

but i find i keep coming back here.. i'm hurting today.. i got to see my project friend.. helping him move from a depressed withdrawn kid to a successful man.. friends.. parties.. work.. etc.. everything i wanted for my life but never was able to get.. i didnt have help.. which is why i help others.. and i'm satying at my dads... he's having a party tonight too.. i just want to die... everyone has these lives.. friends.. work.. and i have... none of it.. :(