October

October

Wednesday, October 23, 2019

1:15 AM

Well we are in October hours at work have been cut below 32 so I managed to apply for partial unemployment and food stamps. I'm hoping for more this time around to help out. So I will find out as time progresses.

As for my transitioning my body is fighting back but it is starting to lose ground even though my levels are above normal they have added Spiro to my regiment to see where it will take me.

So far people have noticed the changes going on like my facial skin is softer and my actual bone structure is changing as well, like it turning into a more of a triangle shape, I have noticed it myself but I'm starting to see the difference myself. As for the chest development I am starting to feel the tingle sensation from them, with that they are starting to grow. As for the plastic surgeon I am waiting to hear from them if they got the approval from the insurance company but the surgeon stats that I am a good candidate for the procedure. I still don’t know if I am going to have it done or not. I am still debating on it.

But I am starting to get concerned about certain levels in my blood they are not to high but just over the norm I am hoping that they will come down eventually.

Last week I had surgery done in my right eye my headaches have finally stopped along with other issues like the runs I think I have loss some weight if that’s the case I am going to try my hardest to keep it off. I go back for a follow up on my right eye and then I have to prepare for my left eye in November its going to be a very tight scheduled. November 6,7th is my left eye surgery and the next day id the follow up. Then next week is veteran's day my appointment with my primary care doctor going to go over my test results and the next day I have my ctlinic appointment. I am hoping that everything is stabilizing, I am pretty sure she is going to have me start taking the injections, I don’t know if the insurance is going to pay for it. My other concern is renewal that is coming up in November are they still going to cover me ???? I am still waiting on their bill, I am afraid to ask.

As for my ex to be she will never stop. I still get the hateful text messages, telling me I have abandoned my family and that I am dead and we need to have a burial. I have an idea on what she means by it but I am not to sure of it. It is shame that I wont be there to celebrate Vann's birthday even though I didn’t get the chance to be there last year when they had it, I was at work when that happened. I do miss them and would love to see them or talk to them but of course Merle has me blocked but she swears that I am not . (right)

Her main concern is the insurance and the title of the car but that is Gabby's concern but they never ask how I am doing but they don’t know that I miss them and sometimes cry over the fact I am not there. I tried my damest to stay but the abuse just kept coming, hell it is still going on accusing me of doing things that I am not.

I am thinking about sending them my coupon for a free turkey or ham for the holidays that I get from work so it can help them out.

With my hours cut at work being cautious on my spending so I don’t use or touch my new credit cards I think I'm doing good in that department, but I still need       womens winter clothes or I will have to wear my male clothes for now.

I just don’t know what more I can do still waiting for an attorney to help me clear my background so I can find a better suitable job.

As for Jacob I will kick his but for leaving that if it’s the truth, Well if there anymore changes I will be documenting them