October

it's October and things are not any better , my hernia does bother me once in awhile but manageable. I am happy that I found a way to wear my clothes without the bulge thanks to the slimming underwear , I managed to get a few more outfits to wear when I leave. Yes with her complaining about me getting a second job it's been hell , for the past several weeks I have been working a total of 80 hours , having to decide whether to eat or sleep or take a shower,  I have been doing away from eating which isnt doing me any good , because after the surgery I weighed 127 lbs after a week I went up to 143 and with me working and and to both places Im back down to 134 lbs, my blood pressure is doing good sitting around 114/71 . But her so called GF I found out yesterday only works 3 days a week , one sided !! Now she is talking about reopening the store , I would like to know who's going to take her for the supplies and run the store , it won't be me ,so I can get accused of stealing money. Working at Wendy's being a cleaning bitch also on top of that he keeps on adding more cap to my work load , I can't keep up, Im still hoping to move out so I can get control of my life without being treated like a child , like yesterday she got into my face asking me where was I when Annette got to Wendy's,  so I told here I walying towards the library even though I went into the goodwill store to try on some clothes , like some bras and garter belt, didn't like the one type of bra which I think they call them a bralette,  it looked like I w as wear a bib. But she started on me , yelling at me for going on the Internet,  " you were probably doing something wrong,  like a child being scolded, I told her I don't have a card but called me a liar as usual,  I don't have a card or money to get one . I can leave even if she calls the police on me even though there's nothing against me. My ace in the sleeve,  I just have to figure a way to take all my clothes , I will have to get my dvds at another time.  See what happens , I'll be happy to leave Wendy's it's to much and besides it was something that she got me instead of clearing my background and work at a place with better pay