Occupied.

Today is day 4 of my sobriety. I am finding more and more than facebook is very stressful. But at the same time it is a way for me to express myself in a positive manner right now. The newsfeed will chain down and newcomings will pop up and I will let mine be positive from now on.
How do I feel today?
1. anxious because of the picture.
2. anxious about friends leaving me, which aren't real friends anyways.
3. focused on trying to make people believe that I am okay. Well and better without the drink.
4. Occupied on EVERYONE ELSE but myself.
Tell me, where does a person come to realize things within oneself and really change them for good. It does not happen over night I know this, but how does it stick with you?