Obsessions...
I hate that I obsess over the stupidest things. Like right now I have the smallest little mark on my computer screen its like hair thin and realllllyyyy small and I can't get it off and it's driving me nuts. I always want my stuff to be in perfect condition and the moment it gets a scratch I freak out and get so upset. Why??! It's so stupid and pointless! My boyfriend can't stand it cause at times Im overly obsessed with my apartment being spotless and other times I am just too tired to care and if he leaves something out I freak out on him but its okay if I leave something out of place cause I am too tired to put it back. I wish I could just accept that things do not need ot be perfect. There is beauty in imperfections....I just have to keep telling myself that...
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Hi Lavender
I was the same as you most of my life, I am now 53.
Your obsessiveness and need for perfection is all stemmed from anxiety.
Like you ~ I was always in 5th gear, 24 hours a day, nothing could be out of place and everything had to be perfect, even me and the way I dressed, and everything I did and said was analysed ~ BY ME!!
Yes you are right ~ you will be tired or being tired ~ you will be exhausting yourself. Have you ever heard of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?
Have you ever thought of seeking help, I have not looked at your profile, your status just reminded me or ME!!
I am here if you would like some help in how I dealt with what you are describing.
AngelEyezz xx
Hey AngelEyezz - Thanks for your reply. Yes I do know about OCD and OCPD..I have a degree in Psychology. I do not believe I have OCD. OCPD (personality disorder) is another story. I may or may not have that. I know I do have Anxiety though. The way I dress though is NOT in order haha I am too tired to try to make myself look good. I feel like a slob half the time! Perhaps thats why I have to make sure everything else is in order because Im not...