O___O This shits even deep for me name? Fuck a name Its too dark to have a name!

Why the hell, cant you fuckin see!! All the pain you cause and all the help I need!!! Why dont I think you'll ever fucking be!! The family I want or the family I need!!! I hope you, will all be so happy!! When I am fucking gone and there is no blood left to bleed!! I don't know, how you say to me!! All these hurtful words and shit on all my dreams!! I hope you know how bad that you hurt me!! I hope you fucking choke on the lies that you tell me!! I don't, want to live this way!! I Will run so damn fast and so fucking far away!!I cant help this pain I feel!!Why wont you fucking die?? Why cant I just be killed??Fuck me, with a razor blade!! Cut me deep inside now once and again!!!What can I do to  numb the pain? shoot me up inside full of procaine!! I feel, it coming on again!! All this fucking anger all this fucking rage!! I want to let it fucking out!!! I feel it deep inside!! It makes me scream and shout!!I cant continue to pretend!!  That I fucking care!!That you are not my friend!! You left, Me helpless and alone!!!I hope you, Feel my anguish now!!I want you to feel it all!!I want to cut it out of me!!I don't want, to continue to fucking breath!!  I will be gone soon my old friend!What is the beginning for you!!Will surely be my end!!!!