numb mostly
most of today ive just felt really numb.i have spent most of it on my own and even though i was lonely i did ok.then tonight stbx rang our daughter and i lost it,couldnt stop crying.i am sick of crying.i know i want him to keep in touch with the kids for thier sake but for some reason when i know hes on the phone my stomache does sumersalts and i feel sick.
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I know just how you feel. I do much better as long as there is no contact. One time, stbx called and my oldest son answered. When I heard him say, \"Hi, dad!\" my heart sank into my stomach. I never even had to speak to him, just knowing he was on the phone was enough. It\'s such an awful place to be in. One day I pray it will get easier for both of us. (((HUGS)))
thankyou,i dont speak to him but like you say just knowing hes there brings all the pain up again. hugs to you.xx