now that i have that off my chest...

i need to update this stupid no smoking goal because ds has alerted me to do so because it has been a week. i still have not been able to find the courage to quit, yet. it is my crutch. my only source of support. do you know what i mean? does any one else feel this way or am i the only crazy one that feels this way??? i need to find another source but i'm all out of options.