November left a Mark

November came and went with some regrets and with horrible emotional feelings. 

my body finally gave up the fight as my testosterone levels plumpit in a swift session as i felt the rapid changes take place, face changing to a more pear shape figure but looking good, my breasts continue to be sore by the touch sometimes without touching then they hurt, but i have noticed behind the nipple it is getting hard my real first noduel. 

Thanksgiving was rough for me to handle being away from my family for the first time i ended up balling my eyes out for hours, not being invited for Thanksgiving dinner as i ended up eating dinner from a charity group that was handing out meals for the unfortunate. I cried hours that day hurting because she didn't invite me for dinner, i would have gone as Daniel so i wouldn't freek out my two sons that have a disability, because i don't think they would not understand why their father was turning into a female.

I tried to prepare myself for such a disappointing day but i couldn't stop the emotions that was overwhelming. Trying to keep it from happening again around Christmass time. I am affraid for December, Christmass will it be the same as Thanksgiving i don't know but i am concerned. I also hope that my transitioning is going smoothly. I wont know till Dec. when my next visit.