November 24,2020

November 24,2020

Tuesday, November 24, 2020

4:29 AM

I have entered my 21 day from my actual surgery date as I am reporting that everything is going pretty good with out any complications. I will admit it hurts a little with pressure when I dilate for 30 mins. As I do it twice a day. As things are going good with my healing process I can't say things aren't going as well with my family. I was being accused of stalking my own daughter and of course as I told merle that I have no way in getting a hold of Katlin but of course she had to drag it demanding an yes or no answer even though the text message I sent her said no in it but she has to treat me like I am a child, it started to frustrate me and Danielle kept her cool about but it just got worse as communications carried on. Merle thanked me for sending her the gift certificates that I got from Arby's at least it would get a ham or a turkey for the kids, but I have noticed that she was circling around for her first pop-shot at me as she asked me am I having Thanksgiving dinner with the people I am living with as she sends a emoji with it kissing a heart out, don't understood what that meant but I replied saying that they are working. But here comes the  slaughter asking me or I should say that I should know not to reach out to Katlin and to tell her that I haven't, that is where Danielle says I have no idea how to reach out to her, looked on FB and messenger with no luck, ( but that was so long ago). Oh but she stopped her from calling the police on me. But it didn't stop there she went on saying that she wants me to come up for Thanksgiving dinner to which I was about to accept with this twist telling me that Vanne came up to her saying that he doesn't have a dad and goes on saying almost that the kids wouldn't want we around which hurt more as I was uninvited as she used the excuse of covid, I would have taken my chance even though I have used public transportation for my clinic appointments and staying for a week watching our daughters Dogs and I haven't gotten the virus but I don’t want it anyway, but as for Thanksgiving I do not know how to handle it, will I have the same problem as I did Friday morning that I just wanted to say goodbye.  I don't know or maybe I can go ahead and try to keep myself occupied by making Thanksgiving dinner and listen to my music in hopes it will curtail my emotions.

ON the other hand my recovery is going ok, still feeling some pain as I wonder can a person's body grow use to it ??

I hope not. On a quick note I hope I can get through the holidays with a clear mind.