November 23rd Thanksgiving Eve

So I couldn't sleep last night. I think I fell asleep for 2 hours and then I just got up. I went to the apartment and folded all the clothes in the geust room and placed his clothes in his closet. I could hear him saying baby fold the clothes and I thought that I had started doing that routinely; even at the Virgina apartment. I made the bed thinking of how some other women would soon be here because I had been "replaced". I took pictures to show that the closet was cleaned out and that I had mailed the key. I cried all the way there and I laid in the living room flooring "begging" God to change his heart and give me another chance. However, I know in my Heart that its over. I won't ever talk to him again. I drove straight to work and put pastor John Gray on You Tube. I am trying so hard Lord...I'm trying so Hard.....