November
Ugh, November - how can it be the 26th of November is coming again? How can it be that it will be 4 years since seeing Jennifer, hugging her, seeing her smile, seeing her........
I'm trying so hard to not go down that rabbit hole - guess I expect too much of myself....As I have learned, just BE in the moment, feel what you need to feel, let your heart cry out in tears......yep that's where I am today - somehow wishing the calender hadn't moved into November.....
Hugs to all - Vicki, always Jennifer's mom
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My heart is with you dear Vicki, and oh, how I know how these months can feel. Just not believable in SO many ways, yet the reality is always with us.
I am sending extra love your way and just BE as you are. In the midst of the heartache, heartbreak and tears I hope too that there will be some stillness and pause. Your Jennifer knows her mother's heart and I hope you feel her as deeply as you can.
Hand in hand, Heart to heart with SO much understanding,
XO Joanie
Dear Vicki, I understand about Nov. being a hard month for you. Observing our children's angel-days is never easy, is it? Hang in there & try to think about the good times, although I know sometimes that's difficult, too. Sending thoughts & prayers that you negotiate this month as peacefully as is possible. I especially hope that Jennifer makes her presence known to you during this month with many signs that come through loud & clear. Will be thinking of you often. Lots of love & hugs to Jennifer's forever Mom from Charlie's forever Mom, Donna
Oh dear Vicki, I am with you about year 4. This has not been the easiest year at all. Then the holiday's to follow, ugh is right. Just be and let your heart feel what it needs. Wishing you much peace on this day as we have to take it one day at a time. Sending tight hugs and much love.
Cindy
Vicki, these days.are so hard. As you said I've learned to allow myself to feel what I need to feel. I dont know how else to get through these tender days. I will be thinking of you and praying for you on the 26th. May the day be as gentle as possible and may you feel dearest Jennifer close by. Love, Linda
I so get it my sweet friend. January was SO hard for SO long for me. And the best we can do is to just allow those days to unfold as they will, and not put too much pressure on ourselves. The realization each year that yet another year has passed is still mind boggling to me.
Hoping this month will be filled with unexplainable joys and amazing gifts from Jennifer.
Much love and tight heart hugs~
Teri
December is my month it is going to be 9 years. It seems like a long time ago as I type that number. It was just yesterday in my heart. Year 4 was a very hard time for me but I seemed to get better by #5. I don't know if I was at rock bottom and then figured how to climb out or what ever magic happened.
I am sure Jennifer will make herself known to you, she is watching over you.
Tight hugs
Penny