November 19, 2020

It has been a busy month for me and it is still unfolding. As you can read below. 

Well it's been 17 days after the surgery and 10 days since my discharge date. I can say that the staff and the Doctors at Temple University Have been very respectful towards me and I am greatly appreciated their bedside manner. But it wasknow what to do with it but time for me to leave as my friend Rose and her ex picked me up at the hospital to bring me home, I was so thrilled to have such good friends to help and support me through everything, Even the crew from Arby's as well.

I sent a text message to several of my friends stating

" I saw my new self as I am not satisfied with the results but overwhelmed with two much joy I don't  know what to do with it but cry, I am hoppy that I didn't back out"

My male friends and even my therapist thought I wasn't Please so they didn't get it but I will say my female friends understood my message which I knew they would.

 I had to have some fun in the process. But down to business.

Being home has brought some challenges that I managed to iron out to make things easier for me, but there are some things that I am not suppose to do but things had to be taken care of like Social Services, the state thinking that I am living with my family, I guess its because I changed my name , no matter I took care of it and in the mean time I am going to call my lawyer that is supposed to be helping me take care of my felony charge I know he is busy but enough is enough my patients are beginning to thin out. But of course I am still working on my Birth Certificate and the State of NJ on my filing to change my name and to sign up for Disability that I am going to call again today. The challenges that I am going through but it is worth it.

As for covid 19 it is spiking all over the world and in my state of NJ and Pa. I hope that they will go virtual to save me money on going up there all the time, but I can understand the two see it I am healing properly and I must say that Katrina refuses to take my money to pay for the gas on my behalf I thank her from the bottom of my heart for her support. I am going to try to make her and her family a Thanksgiving dinner,

Which reminds me how am I going to get through the holidays without seeing my kids. Unlike last year I balled my eyes out for 5 hours. That is how distraught I was. What will it be like this year , but I have to learn how to be strong and let go, as I tried to get merle to invite me up for thanksgiving but this is what I got in a text message

"I am sure your family you live with will help give you your perfect holidays"

That was heart breaking as I broke down and started crying.

I still love the bitch and care about my kids but she will not grasp the concept of the abuse she was dishing out that caused me to leave.

The one year I will say that I accomplished a lot in my life time and since it's been over I have gotten a lawyer to help me expunge my charges, got my blood pressure under control and If I continue going on the same course I feel I can get off the medication once and for all because ever since I had my surgery on the 2nd of November my blood pressure has been running normal and I hope It stays that way. Also It was required by the surgeons that I have a home nurse to stop by just to make sure that I am doing everything in the correct way even though I had them stop by only twice they feel that I am taking care of myself within their parameters, so they are thinking of terminating the home nurse but I told them it wasn't my call to do that, but I don't mind them stopping by I kind of enjoyed there company even thought it would only be about 15 mins. I am getting kind of lonely here.

So today I started my first day of dilation and I managed to reach the second dot on the Dilator which is more than I got at my appointment on Tues hitting the third one I tried the second size up but she felt to much resistance going in so I started on the first one and managed to reach the second dot I hope that I can maintain it.

So I looked on the doctors notes saying for 30 mins a day but someone else said I should be doing it twice a day at 30 mins so I am going to do the 30 mins twice a day. Hopefully it will make a difference.

I will have to send some holiday cards to the floor where I was placed for my recovery, they were so nice and I met a nice person in the other room that under went the almost same surgery as I did but they were no depth.

I know that I couldn't live in the city even though pretty much everyone in the Evolutions group lives up there and I hear all the fun that they have like helping one another, which I would love to do down here. Try to get the community out being able to get real Therapists down here and doctors that know what they are doing I just hope I can get the presence of both Mosaic and Temple to sponsor like they are doing in PA.

Well it is getting late and I am going to close. But stay tuned in because you never know what will transpire.