November 14th,2008-Frank is dead!

i have accepted the death of frank and others that have died on me in the past.I have accepted the fact that he will never come back and that I will never see or hear from him again.I have accepted that I will never have one of these romances.You see since 1962..I have been fighting a disease.It is called Mental Illness.I,Vader am mentally ill.I have been 1962.I got sick when I was 14 and it has been an up hill battle.It took me a long time to even talk right to people.I now have wonderful conversations and i no longer fear people.I am no longer afraid of highways or trees.I am no longer afraid of grass.I now realize that life is for the living and we must make the best of it.I am on medication.it is called depakote.I have been having reallyn strong reactions and as of today I told my case manager here ..no more.I will never take depakote again.I refuse.that goes for zoloft and prozaC.I refuse to take them.Today I can smile and laugh.I can also cry.I can also relate better to people and i can also relate to these strong emotions.I now realize how some of these people who murder feel.They are dying on the inside and noone wants to help.People today dont want to get involved.They are afraid.Afraid of what? Obama will bring back civility to the states.He will bring back friends and such.People today do not get along in the offices and i know this for a fact.I was asked recently if there were 2 people in the world that I would want to meet who would they be.The first person that I would like to meet is Howard Stern and the person that I would like to really meet and talk to is Axl Rose.These people helped me change my life..oprah and dr.phil not to mention tyra banks havent.Thanks Axl!