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I thought being here would be so peaceful.  instead, its more stressful than where we were.  My husband misses the old place.  I know things will get better but I'm hoping its sooner than later. 
 Our relationship has been taking the back burner to work.  I quit my job to watch the kids.  I never wanted to be a "stay-at-home mom" but thats what is best for the kids right now.  I feel like crap being home too.  I have learned my lesson the hard way and I can stick it out the hard times. Hopefully things will ease up in a few months.  Hopefully I can get back to work.  
I think he enjoys me being home when he gets home though. I think he likes that I'm not working with all them guys too.  He would randomly ask me if I liked any one at the job.  I told him no. And I think its impossible for me to like any one since the incident.  
I think I should delete my profile sometimes... but then I think maybe I will need you guys again some where down the line. Then again, I'm pretty sure I won't unless he fools around on ME!

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sam2014
sam2014

Totally get it. My H and I moved to MD over a year ago and I thought it would help our relationship. Instead it took a downward spiral. I went from working full time, being surrounded by friends and family and having an \"identity\" to being a stay at home mom and caretaker for my mom. I really question you staying at home. It gives you too much ideal time to think about things...analyze them. You will also loose a sense of self. This is all when my A started. I know you are certain you won\'t do one again and I believe you, but your happiness is at stake -- which it turn means your M. Even if you work a part time job, you need to do something. Best of luck to you.