nothing is ok

I'm just miserable today. I spent all day today terrified that something bad was going to happen to my boyfriend and torturing myself that i hadn't spent anytime with him in like a day cuz i had gone out yesterday before he came back from work and stayed out until like 6 am. I disabled  my facebook page and never even talked to my middle school best friend cuz her profile picture is one of her and her baby and her last post was "took a shower with my baby... life is wonderful". How sad is that? Im so jaded that i dont even want friends who think life is wonderful. I'm gonna eat and come back and post later