Nothing is normal

And I just really wish everyone would stop saying "things will get back to normal, it will just take some time". Nothing about this is normal and I can't see how it will ever be "normal" again.  I'm willing to accept a "new" normal, but come on people, just because I might laugh at something that is funny or smile back at you if you smile at me DOES NOT mean I am over "it". Jim is not, nor ever was an "it". He is always going to be part of me and I am always going to miss him. PERIOD!
 
I am not bad, I am just sad and I recon I will be for some time and I am okay with that. I can't imagine feeling any different, I have lost a great big piece of who I am.
Thanks for listening.