Nothing changes

Every day is the same day nothing changes I wake up and think this was just a dream and they aren't really gone then realiz they are and this nightmare is real And this is my new reality and that there's nothing I can do to change it or make it how it was I put thoughts that I don't want to think about it in the back of my mind so I don't feel these feelings that I don't want to feel but the feelings come anyway and the thoughts it's been a bad day today