Not Yet, But I will Someday!
On the phone meeting tonight the discussion was the third promise of CODA: I know a new freedom
I know that I am not there yet, but I look forward to the day when I know deep down what that truly means. Right now I still trying to let go of some of my fears and my feelings of loneliness. I know that I have a man that loves me, yet I fear that if I don't hear from him right away he doesn't want me. I sometimes fear that his family has told him some untruth about me which they have tried doing before, but know that there were things I haven't been totally honest with him about.
Much of my fears I know are unfounded, yet I find myself needing to be told by him that he loves me and appreciates everything I have done for him. He also has let me know that by my actions I am making him feel really bad for not being able to be here for me.
I hate codependency and the issues that go along with it. I look forward to the day that I don't have to be reminded of how much a person loves me. I look forward to the day the I know a new freedom!
I know that I am not there yet, but I look forward to the day when I know deep down what that truly means. Right now I still trying to let go of some of my fears and my feelings of loneliness. I know that I have a man that loves me, yet I fear that if I don't hear from him right away he doesn't want me. I sometimes fear that his family has told him some untruth about me which they have tried doing before, but know that there were things I haven't been totally honest with him about.
Much of my fears I know are unfounded, yet I find myself needing to be told by him that he loves me and appreciates everything I have done for him. He also has let me know that by my actions I am making him feel really bad for not being able to be here for me.
I hate codependency and the issues that go along with it. I look forward to the day that I don't have to be reminded of how much a person loves me. I look forward to the day the I know a new freedom!
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