Not the best of days...

Well I am going to be brief as I do not wish to cry any more then I have today. I called my Mom, my Pastor and my friend, cried with all of them.
Now why... today is 6 months since my "brown eyed girl" wife left me. I wrote in my journal this morning that without my renewed faith in Christ I would not be able to cope.
My only combat to the pain, grief, shame and utter regret has been my prayers and faith the Lord has a plan for me, my son, and my wife. I hope and pray that plan is together as one, as it should have always been. He knows my heart, he knows my remorse, he knows my intent...
The man I was, does not have to be the man I am. I miss the guy I used to be... but even he needed some twiking...
I can not change yesterday, I can work on today, to make me a better man tomorrow!
I miss you "brown eyed girl" I miss you terribly. All I am and all I will ever be, I give to you my love.