Not sure I can make it

I am here with my family and want to go home. I miss Joe too much. His chair is empty, I want to cry but wont in front of everyone. I wish this was over already.
Why are you gone from me? You know you love thanksgivign here with all the great food. I cannot do this without you. After we ate and hung out till late, we always go in the car an went to "our home"......
I want to be with you please.