not so good

Time to vent.  Time to go back to Al Anon.   Although I don't believe he's using again, my reactions to T, lately, remind me of the old days.  Because he's having a bad day, it affects me.  I have boundaries, but give a little, but then regret it because it never is enough for him. He then blows up.  I don't know how I fell back into this, but I did. Thankfully, I decided to go back to Al Anon tonight.  Can't blame my reaction or "mood" on hormones this time.   Also been rather anxious and impatient, lately.  Okay - maybe "lately" isn't the word to use.  T's former counselor hasn't returned my calls. He had asked if I would present the drug program to some guidance counselors next month when I dropped something off at his office earlier this week and I told him that I would get back to him, which I did and said yes.  Since the program is going to be addressed to a different audience, we'd have to make some changes - therefore - we'll need some time to work on it. Tomorrow my hubby and I will be going out of town for a few days and so I thought that that would be a great time to work on making the adjustments.  So far - no call.  The reason I was at his office was to try and get him to advertise in a new newspaper.  At first I thought maybe he'd feel obligated to buy an ad, which is why he didn't return the call but that isn't the case because I told him in the next message not to worry about it.  Wish he'd let me know one way or another...... In addition - maybe I need to talk to him myself.  At least, that's how I feel right now.  This too shall pass.