Not So Angry Today
I'm feeling better today. I had a good day at work... I didn't manage to make in in early, since I didn't sleep that well last night, but I'm still glad I went in. I managed to get to Target to get some pills, but I couldn't afford my birth control. I use it mostly to prevent my period, since when I get my period I get really moody, but I can't afford $228 for just that. I was supposed to get my Share of Cost Medicaid this month, but I never got the bill from the ER to send to the Department of Children and Families to get it activated. I guess I will just have to retroactively send them all my bills for the month. It sucks, since if I did have this insurance, I would have been able to get my pills for free. I thought I was going to be covered, so I didn't worry about submitting my form for birth control from the state. I have to do that tonight and get it mailed in tomorrow so I can get my pills ASAP. I want to get back on the Depo shot... that was the best form of birth control I've been on. I was a bit upset when I found out I couldn't get my pills, but at the same time I understood that it was my fault, so I'm not blaming Target or anything. I didn't plan on going to the ER, so I should have saved up money to meet my share of cost. Tomorrow I'm going to have to go back to Target to get more pills... I dropped some off today but didn't want to wait for them.
I think I'm more at peace today. I might be tired, but the mood swings have gone down a bit. I felt earlier that I had to be off the internet because something might have set me off, but I didn't get set off so I'm back. I don't know how long this anger thing is going to last, but I'm not mad at my mom anymore. At least not until I talk to her again lol. My friend Vita said I have to pretend that there have been no previous disagreements when you talk/visit someone who's sick, and I agree with her. So I have to pretend that there hasn't been times in the past when I get really mad at my mom for forgetting things. She's not that old (she's 56) and my memory is bad, but I know to write things down or save phone numbers in my phone so I don't forget them. Once I get a set cell phone I'm going to transfer all my numbers over so I don't have to worry about losing them again. That's what I do, I use my cell phone as a phone book. I've only lost one phone, and that was possibly stolen, so I don't mind. I'm a child of the new generation where everything is cell phones. I do have a home phone, but I only have it because I canceled my old cell. I thought it would have been cheaper to have a home phone, but for what I use it for it's not. I call nationwide, so having a cell is cheaper.
Okay, nobody cares about my cell phone stuff. My mood today was good... After I had coffee at work I was fine. I had to have a strong Cuban coffee to get me going, but I was good. I wish I had a way to make it at home, but you need an espresso machine which I can't afford. Work was normal... I had some people come up to the desk who were angry that I had to deal with, but I dealt with them fine. I talked to my boss and told him I applied for a job there, and he said he would do what he could to get me in there. I would love to have a job there... I like the place, it's close to home and everything. I don't know if the job I applied for requires standing a lot, but if it does then I'm sure I can get a stool or something to help me out. I should check it out on Monday. I have talked to the woman in HR but she doesn't know much. It doesn't say in the job description the hours or anything... I would prefer something in the afternoon of course. If I get something in the morning, I would just come home and take a nap. I just have to work around them.
Food was okay today... I met my calories, but with pizza. Geo didn't sleep last night, so he slept all day and forgot to take out chicken, so we ordered pizza. I'm not over my calories or anything, but I wish I had better food and more of an appetite to eat good food. I haven't met my carbohydrate goal in weeks. I don't know how I did it before... it seems I have to eat nothing but carbohydrates just to meet the goal for the day. Stress was okay today... I dealt with the angry people at the desk fine (just told them to wait for the person who could help them, since I can't), and my sleep was okay. I woke up early, I just need to work on getting out of bed when I wake up at first so I don't oversleep.
I think I'm more at peace today. I might be tired, but the mood swings have gone down a bit. I felt earlier that I had to be off the internet because something might have set me off, but I didn't get set off so I'm back. I don't know how long this anger thing is going to last, but I'm not mad at my mom anymore. At least not until I talk to her again lol. My friend Vita said I have to pretend that there have been no previous disagreements when you talk/visit someone who's sick, and I agree with her. So I have to pretend that there hasn't been times in the past when I get really mad at my mom for forgetting things. She's not that old (she's 56) and my memory is bad, but I know to write things down or save phone numbers in my phone so I don't forget them. Once I get a set cell phone I'm going to transfer all my numbers over so I don't have to worry about losing them again. That's what I do, I use my cell phone as a phone book. I've only lost one phone, and that was possibly stolen, so I don't mind. I'm a child of the new generation where everything is cell phones. I do have a home phone, but I only have it because I canceled my old cell. I thought it would have been cheaper to have a home phone, but for what I use it for it's not. I call nationwide, so having a cell is cheaper.
Okay, nobody cares about my cell phone stuff. My mood today was good... After I had coffee at work I was fine. I had to have a strong Cuban coffee to get me going, but I was good. I wish I had a way to make it at home, but you need an espresso machine which I can't afford. Work was normal... I had some people come up to the desk who were angry that I had to deal with, but I dealt with them fine. I talked to my boss and told him I applied for a job there, and he said he would do what he could to get me in there. I would love to have a job there... I like the place, it's close to home and everything. I don't know if the job I applied for requires standing a lot, but if it does then I'm sure I can get a stool or something to help me out. I should check it out on Monday. I have talked to the woman in HR but she doesn't know much. It doesn't say in the job description the hours or anything... I would prefer something in the afternoon of course. If I get something in the morning, I would just come home and take a nap. I just have to work around them.
Food was okay today... I met my calories, but with pizza. Geo didn't sleep last night, so he slept all day and forgot to take out chicken, so we ordered pizza. I'm not over my calories or anything, but I wish I had better food and more of an appetite to eat good food. I haven't met my carbohydrate goal in weeks. I don't know how I did it before... it seems I have to eat nothing but carbohydrates just to meet the goal for the day. Stress was okay today... I dealt with the angry people at the desk fine (just told them to wait for the person who could help them, since I can't), and my sleep was okay. I woke up early, I just need to work on getting out of bed when I wake up at first so I don't oversleep.
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