Not Sleeping Again
Last night I didn't fall asleep until after 1am, and I was up by 6am. I took some pills, and then around 9 I fell back asleep until about 10:30. The rest of the time I was just lying in bed waiting for me to fall back asleep again, but it didn't happen. I did manage to go for a walk today, and even jogged a bit. I was a bit hypomanic, well, more than a bit, but whatever. I'm coming down again from it, and when I got home from my walk I slept for 3 and a half hours. It's 9pm now and I'm pretty tired, I hope I can get some good sleep tonight. I know I need it.
Geo and I had a talk last night after my bath, and everything is okay with him. He was just feeling a bit weird so he went for a walk. Everything is good between us. We talked about the possibility of me going to the hospital, and he says it's going to happen, it's just a question of when. I don't really want to go for the most part, but there is part of me that does want to go for the attention. I know it's a horrible reason to want to go, and I do feel better about the attention thing today, but I know it's going to come back.
I talked to my sister about Medicaid and how I need to figure out stuff so I can get coverage for my therapy and medications. She says in CA there's a way that if you talk with a case worker you can get it figured out, so I will see about talking to one tomorrow. Once I'm done with this journal I'm going to look up how it works here in FL.
I ate a lot of food today, but I think I'm in my calorie range. I'm having stomach problems now, though, so I may have eaten something bad. I don't know what it could have been, I've eaten so much today. That's what happens when you are hypomanic, hungry and awake for a lot of the day. Well, I just did my calories and I'm under again. I don't understand. I've been eating all day, how can I be under on my calories? I've been eating crap, too... ramen, egg salad sandwich, oatmeal.... I think it was that I didn't have potatoes for dinner I had green beans instead that changed it. If my stomach pills kick in and I feel better, I have my other piece of chicken that will put me in my calorie range for the day. I guess you just never know, do you?
I'm leaving my mood as horrible since I feel like crap, and I just hope I can get some sleep tonight and go to the store tomorrow. That's my goal for the day- go to the store. I can go at anytime almost, so hopefully I can accomplish that.
Geo and I had a talk last night after my bath, and everything is okay with him. He was just feeling a bit weird so he went for a walk. Everything is good between us. We talked about the possibility of me going to the hospital, and he says it's going to happen, it's just a question of when. I don't really want to go for the most part, but there is part of me that does want to go for the attention. I know it's a horrible reason to want to go, and I do feel better about the attention thing today, but I know it's going to come back.
I talked to my sister about Medicaid and how I need to figure out stuff so I can get coverage for my therapy and medications. She says in CA there's a way that if you talk with a case worker you can get it figured out, so I will see about talking to one tomorrow. Once I'm done with this journal I'm going to look up how it works here in FL.
I ate a lot of food today, but I think I'm in my calorie range. I'm having stomach problems now, though, so I may have eaten something bad. I don't know what it could have been, I've eaten so much today. That's what happens when you are hypomanic, hungry and awake for a lot of the day. Well, I just did my calories and I'm under again. I don't understand. I've been eating all day, how can I be under on my calories? I've been eating crap, too... ramen, egg salad sandwich, oatmeal.... I think it was that I didn't have potatoes for dinner I had green beans instead that changed it. If my stomach pills kick in and I feel better, I have my other piece of chicken that will put me in my calorie range for the day. I guess you just never know, do you?
I'm leaving my mood as horrible since I feel like crap, and I just hope I can get some sleep tonight and go to the store tomorrow. That's my goal for the day- go to the store. I can go at anytime almost, so hopefully I can accomplish that.
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