not ready to grow up

im gettin closer and closer to 18 and its scarring the crap out of me because ill be an adult almost on my own. ive never done bills before or taxes and im confused. lol. on January 11th my bf propoused to me and i said yes and now im have second thoughts because im still in love with two other guys who i know when i get of age will support me. .....who knew that tyhis all was going to get all complecaited in the end. to be honest i dnt want to grow up. ....i just want to be a lil kid whos depended on everything around them, ya know.