Not ready

I realized that I am not ready for a healthy relationship. So I am going to focus on myself, being a happy positive person. I think I have wanted someone because, I thought if you didn't have someone, something was wrong with you, instead of finding someone that you really like.  I have been so desperate that I have turned people off, so I am going to change.  So far I have been working out since 05/20/2016, I an down 8 pounds. I have gotten a trainer and it has helped a lot.  So my plan is to keep working out, start opening up to people more, without worry if they're going to like or dislike me.