Not my day....

Where I live its only 9:34 am. And my morning is already unbearable. I feel as though I could just stay in bed all day and cry. My emotions have me sick to me stomach. All I can do is pray to my creator who I am hoping listening to me. I have puked all the anger out and want to start over fresh. I know I cant not take responsibility for others action but I am bearing the feelings of having to deal with them. I just want to role up into a ball and waste my day away in self pitty and helplessness.
I cant let it happen. I am stronger than this and I will get over it. I hate the person he has created, the one who shaped me into being so helpless. He still has the power to do so after all these years, after all the work I have done to regain my confidence as a mother and person. Today I take that power back once again. I'm not certain how many times I can continue to do so. The more the years go on the harder it gets to do so. I thought it would get easier, but it does........